Sometimes the Sun is too bright. I nearly always expect to wake up in darkness, with wind and rain knocking on my windows and crashing against the ground just beyond my walls. Trees should be buckling under the force of nature. My fortress should be creaking. These days I open my eyes and close them [...]
Thou Shall Not Need
A few months back, I came up with this ineffable plan for my life. It was underdeveloped but had high hopes of becoming flawless. In my head, I saw myself overcoming impossible odds, saving my sister, and then basically settling down with a good girl for the rest of my life. I poured my heart [...]
Redefine This
I’m dying. I’ve lived a good life. There’s nothing more that can be done. I’m ready to go. These were the last thoughts of an old woman who lived her life with fiery compassion, endured the fires of hell, and started fires in the hearts of so many people she met. Her name is Marie [...]
The Outsider
I’m proud to be a human. I was born on one small planet somewhere in the middle of a vast and very old universe. The fact that I am an object in that universe, and that, unlike most of the universe, I can be conscious of both myself and my environment, and that I can [...]
You Wouldn’t Think This in the Shower
(I hope I didn’t forget anything since I took that shower) I woke up from a dream today. In the dream before that dream, I was with two others as we were trying to get through Chinese customs to do the American tourist thing. I was looking off in the distance through a window in [...]
Dear Father
Dear Father, I do not know you. I do not remember your face, you voice, or anything about you, really. I know only what I’ve been told, and for the first time in my life, I am not judging you. You’ve done things that were unmistakably wrong, that if I were to observe being committed [...]
Valentine for a Ghost
This was inspired by a good friend of mine. I think I should add a disclaimer: These are the thoughts of one who has wandered, probably too far, into his own darkness, adrift. Perhaps this was the worst thing I could do. But Maybe you will understand. Maybe you will appreciate it. Maybe you can [...]
Tell the carrion I will Carry On.
If you were to ask him who he was two years ago, he wouldn’t be able to tell you. Heck, he wouldn’t be able to tell you who he was yesterday. His eyes were like daggers peircing through time and space and looking right through you, cutting your soul assunder. And the little men too, [...]
How to save a life
The images of my life flutter across the screen in front of my eyes. The fragments of memory each awaken an old sentiment or two on their passage; each sentiment catching me by surprise and causing my heart to jump into my throat. I keep watching. I remember many firsts. I remember meeting old friends [...]
